Conflicting Emotions

Tonight, as we sleep sound in our big soft beds, our daughter's birthmother will be appearing in court to relinquish her parental rights to her daughter. This is a HUGE step in us becoming her parents and we will be incredibly excited to have this step behind us, but we need to be careful to not think of this as just another check mark in the process.

As we sleep a mother has to make a decision no mother ever hopes to make. I grieve for her that she has to go through this. I don't think I could ever fathom what making a decision like this would be like and thank God that I will never have to. For me to become a mother, another woman has to give up her daughter. This is a price that I would never have wanted to ask for to become a mother, but for some reason God, in his perfect sovereignty, has ordained this to happen this way. I have comfort, and pray that she is comforted to, in knowing that this was always God's plan. I thank God that He picked us to be this little girl's forever family. I am honored to be the woman who she will grow up calling mother. I just hope I never forget this moment and the price A's birthmother had to pay for me to be her mother. I pray that I will always be able to honor the sacrifice that will be made tonight.

Please pray with me for our daughter's birth mother. Pray that she makes it safely to court and that God gives her overwhelming peace and assurance that letting us become A's parents is the right thing to do.